Ad astra per aspera

I think I like him - but as the story goes, its complicated. When will it ever stop being like this?
I'm tired, lonely and bursting with love to give. Somehow, this one feels different (maybe I'm hallucinating that its different). Pieces find their places without a push and it seems like the universe is finally conspiring on my side but - there is a big BUT...And a question that wants to fall from my parched lips and into the breadth of his supple, brown arms, a question that leaves me hanging on the precipice of a buy-in, a question that plagues my fevered dreams and dry striped sheets...a question that needs an answer.

Throw it at him and it may bounce back.
Deliver it to his doorstep and it might get stepped on.
Send it to him via parcel post and it may get lost.
Hand it to him and it may be crushed beyond comprehension.
Email it to him and it might become corrupted by a virus.
Sms it to him and it may be ignored or worse, forwarded.
Tell it to him and it may not be heard.

I believe. I need to believe.

These past few weeks, after being bitten by the vampire Edward (Eclipse) have been so much better. I'm out of my "depresssion" from finishing the 3rd Stephenie Meyer book - finally.

Everything seems so much brighter, sunshiny and... happy. I practically jump out of bed in the mornings and whistle a happy tune to work.

Why?

Wala lang.

Ok don't buy it nga.

I need to find which way to compass points though, until then, I wait with bated breath.

This is too funny!

9:00a.m. bumped into my all-time industry crush before a Client meeting
12:00 noon had the perfect brunch


yum.

I am Optimus Prime! hahaha
yahooo!!



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We really did try to make it.
Bintan was strange. Fun factor was there and booze aplenty but some afterthoughts still left me with a bitter taste in my mouth.
An awakening to a reality that I tried to avoid but eventually collided with.
A week spent with strangers who shouldn't have been so.
Maybe I have moved on ...that is up until he had to speak.
Why did he have to bring it up? I thought I was leaving on a high.
Do I ignore him now or do I talk to him about it? I'm too tired to think.

Leaving tomorrow for Singapore/Bintan Lagoon Resort for Tasha and Kaks' wedding (five days of drunken stupor here I come! ok maybe 3 days and lotsa sun!) Finally get to go on a vacation, these past 6 months have been really stressful because of my Abuelita, but she's stable and getting better so I can take a break without losing my head (and heart) with worry =)

Cheers to RnR!

Thanks to Bianca for sharing =)


Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there - to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, will power, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity, all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and to open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create your own ! life and then go out and live it.

Completely blew my mind.










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When does friendship end?
Throughout one's lifetime...we meet countless people, some of whom we just meet and greet, others who stay awhile, family friends, sons of titas, classmates, batch mates, friend of a friend, 6 degrees of separation people and some who become our best friends for life and sadly, some who we suddenly disconnect with or because of some incident or another become our enemies forever...some we grow into, and those we leave behind.

I don't believe in having just one best friend. I have a select group (mostly from high school and college days) simply because I think that each person plays a specific role in my life (as do I in theirs): career consultant, love coach, life coach, shoulder, little sister, mentor, inspiration, hug giver, laughter and lightness, religious brother/sister and conscience!

I guess its a bit strange but I'm suddenly feeling that I'm losing one of them. Maybe I've already lost her actually...but why don't I feel bad about it? She was one my closest friends all throughout highschool and college, but somewhere along the way of work and my getting closer to other people our connection was - broken? I'm not sure if that's the word because we DO still understand each other on a certain level. I wonder if its because she's been living in another country the past couple of years - add that to my living abroad too, maybe we just grew out of our friendship. Is this the end? another chapter perhaps?

Yes, I admit, nasasayangan ako...but at the same time - I don't feel anything.
Am I weird? I wonder if she feels the same way.
Or maybe we just need a break from each other.

My utmost pet peeve is when a so-called friend of mine starts to make hirits that are below the belt to me or someone else we are with. Positioned as "wit" but laden with poison that I and even those around me clearly recognize and try out utmost best to ignore while stealing glances at each other. Why do people have to be that way? If you have something on your mind or something that you are absolutely DYING to say but don't have the fucking "heart" to do so, then just shut up or get the damn thing over with. I would like to think that we are big enough to be told things that we don't like to hear or whatever issues people may have with us. What kind of a friend does that anyway? That's the thing I've been thinking about actually...maybe this person just isn't my friend. I've heard that he says things behind my back pa. Haay talaga, plastikan ba to or what. I despise people like that. May they rot in hell. The mere fact that I'm thinking about this makes me want to throw up - so fucking high school. Well, I guess there really are EVIL people in this world. Time to cut those off from my life.

On a more positive note, I can't wait to go to Sing tomorrow =)
Thank God work has been stressful but manageable this last week and that a new AD came in na pinay rin who incidentally, is now my new housemate! (save more $$ before I go home for xmas since its time to buy that Cartier Roadster!). She's pretty cool, I think we balance each other out well. 1 more month and a half (though we shall see about that) to go baby, and I'm outta here =) I'm gna miss this place, I've really come to love the quirky things about it, the architecture, the hole-in-the-wall restos, the coffee, the charm...the craziness. Anyways, more on the nostalgia when its time.

Time to finish up work and get packing!

I think I'm becoming obsessed with Flickr.
Not sure if this is good or bad just yet, only thing I know is that it really inspires me. Getting lots of ideas in my head...and now I'm itching to shoot more. I just love that you can get comments from people about your pics, and post comments too - at least you can get perspective on your work and if its really good...or crap.  Somehow, the positivity really helps - and encourages me to shoot more...and more... and yesterday, I ended up buying my much yearned for...drooled over...430ex flash. Today I plan to shoot my "sugar high" macro series =). Yes, building my portfolio one at a time. Come December...time for a "coming out" exhibit in Capones and Fiamma hopefully. Shoot lang ng shoot....

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sofiagenato/

I can't believe the weekend is over...and again I'm working on a Sunday. Last night was fun, went to a French barbecue (na wala namang bbq! but the quiche was excellent) with Marco.
Then off to Kike's house for a party that was reminiscent of Manila house parties in the sense that we were just hanging out in different areas jamming/singing then dancing naman in the other area... got majorly wasak - well its been coming since this week was definitely one for the books. Was mejo depressed last night - had a great bonding session with Marvin though. Wasak all the way home - passed for some 3am Bahn Bao with Marco. Slept 'til 3pm today hehe. Sarap!

This afternoon, went with Maira to my suki to get her a digicam. I still can't believe the prices here! was able to get her the newest Ixus 600 with IS and a 1gig mem card for $350! Gadsss racket na dapat ito sa Manila. Walked around with her and Marvin and ended up buying 2 pairs of shoes...Happiness = new shoeses! haha. Dinner at the backpackers area at Cali Burritos - yum! so glad they relocated.

Anyways, gtg work work. Here's to a better (hopefully or I'm really going to go nuts) week ahead.

;0)

So today I begin =)

Last night we were out with the usual crew of Ting, July, Faye and Pao at Vascos with Maira who will be leaving us soon for DDB Jakarta - I get sad everytime I think about her imminent departure and the loss of my dinner buddy...thank God for im and skype =). Friends from Manila were also here, Mitch and Mon - on a 2 week hiatus around Asia covering 5 or was it 6 countries? something interesting to do one day actually...Asia-hop.

I wasn't in such a good mood towards the end of the evening, I guess the angst of the week suddenly released itself due to the inebriation from my current cocktail of choice Absolut Peach 7 - yum. Looking back at the last 5 days... fucking a. I can't believe what crap I went through at work - my boss is on leave so I'm bantay bahay, with my 2 of clients fighting with of 2 of my ae's on two different accounts (talk about a firefighting mode) then having to do 4 major presentations. This was a week that I wished there was 3 of me. Seasoning can be a bitch.

Icel is here for lunch... brb.